'A Piece of Literature–“Lost Love”\r'

'I savour you I vault you. When I close my eyes I can slake picture Your demonstrate Your smile Your voice I can still picture you I wear thin’t greet why I crawl in you. The thought of you still brings a smile on my face. Though u r many another(prenominal) miles external from me, only(prenominal) still I don’t turn in why I can’t help exactly envisage of you. All I c ar for is your happiness. I beg for your well being. And I hope the smile that make me f solely for you neer leaves your face. I subscribe no idea how I fell for you. You ar so close to my kernel. And I don’t even go to sleep why. My snapper chose you. You are picky.You are the one person in my deportment who I would choose above the rest. besides you don’t admit how important you are to me. What I would give to clear you. How many weeping my eyes have shed missing you. How many shadows I have cried myself to sleep just cerebration of you. How whenever yo u got hurt it was al to the highest degree as if I could heart it a thousand times intensified. How whenever I see your picture my heart melts a little & adenosine monophosphate; all i wanna do is just estimate at it. How I am crying a little right now just mentation of you. Most of all you don’t know that I love you & deoxyadenosine monophosphate; probably you never will.Absence makes the heart go fonder. And I am, fond of you. I don’t live in a dream world. I don’t judge myself to have a fairy tale. I misbegot c’mon permit’s be realistic. I have no chance with you. When you moved you took a part of my heart with you. And I want it bet on. I try so hard not to love you, not to worry rough you, not to think of you, but somehow you crawl your stylus back into my heart. You are the one person in my life history of whom my heart cannot let go of. And the funny intimacy is that I don’t even know how you became this important to me. I don’t know how.I never thought that a girl standardised me would ever fall for a guy identical you. precisely somehow I did. I have never tangle the way for anyone like I felt for you. I try to forget you. barely it’s just too hard. Sometimes I miss him, I miss him so oft. I find comfort in the thoughts of him with me comforting me, though I know it will only be possible in my dreams. When I am sad, I think of him. I don’t know why but he is very special for me. I don’t know what makes him special. He just has a power over my heart. I can’t chase away thinking somewhat him. He is beautiful. Though he is not correct but in my eyes he is.He is the most beautiful thing in this world &type A; deserves all the happiness in this world. I pray for him, I have constantly done that, I want him to be happy & angstrom unit; healthy. I want him to get everything his heart desires. I self-collected a lot of courage conk out-place night before sendi ng him that simple â€Å"hi”. It was some after 3 months. The 2 minute schmooze we had was not much, but it made my heart baffle as hard as anything could. I was so happy that you remembered me & wanted to talk, But I was also kind of disappointed when you didn’t solvent after a while.For workweeks & weeks I always came online in hopes that you would pass on me but you never did. And I was too scared myself to pass you worried that I would be pestiferous you or that you would have much better things to do than tattle with me. So I did nothing. I just used to open your profile & see your pictures. You still looked the same way you did before, you still were a little spoilt but a popular guy. You still had that element about you, but something was changed, your expressions, your smile, i found hidden sombreness in it. It troubled me.The kind of statuses you shared made it seem that you were heartbroken. And I still remember the render of 2 pics- It ’s hard to forget somebody who gave you so much to remember. Distance doesn’t field of study if ii hearts are loyal to all(prenominal) other. It made me wonder who you were talking about. Oh. , how I wish it was me. But I guess it can’t be me coz its almost impossible that you have a crush on me. Nobody has made me note this way, nobody. Nobody has made me cry this way. It’s not just one time or two time, hell, not even three times; it’s endless times when my heart misses him.Each time i don’t know why i cry & each time I promise myself not to cry again. But consequently again I see his picture, his beautiful face & i can’t stop myself from missing him. Just telling his name causes my heart to flutter a little. I don’t even understand why I miss him so much. It’s not like we were friends or anything. He made friends pretty easily & I had hardly any friends. In fact, he was friends with people who used t o make fun of me. But I never let myself In the last 4 months we might have had two brief chats consisting of 13 messages in total.But still when I read the words you typed, that you actually wanted to talk to me I cannot stop but smile a little. The first base chat took place in December last year when you sent me a request on fb. My heart actually stopped for a snatch there. And when you messaged me, my heart was so full of happiness that I am sure I would have screamed. I tried acting cool & to let you believe I was happy in my life I acted cheerfully. And when you messaged to ask if I remember you, oh the irony.! The only reason I joined fb was because of you. The way you typed your messages,,there was something unalike about it.But then after one message you did not result back. You were still online, it made me find oneself like you had more important people to chat with, so I let it go. After that I came online each day as many hours as I could in hopes that you wou ld message me, but you never did. And I was too much of a coward myself to message you, I thought that I would be annoying you. So I never did. Until last week when I finally gathered enough volume to send you that 2 letter word â€Å"hi”. I waited for almost 5 minutes but you didn’t reply,so I felt really weak for messaging.Then I found out that my stupid inter gain connection did not load that page properly, so I opened a new tab, & see that you had replied in the next minute. I felt so happy, that you took time out of your life to reply to my message. You asked how my exams took plac, & I asked about yours, the you tell me you are back in the city. Then my stupid net setter disconnected & I couldn’t get a signal for 30 min. Damn..! it never does such a drama when I am doing noting. Anyways, I replied, that night you didn’t come online. That is all\r\n'